This weekend has been amazing the great thing about life is when it goes really wrong then something really good happens. The balance of life. Yesterday I went shopping which always makes a girl feel better lol. I went to a barbque I meet the cutest little girl called louise; she reminded me of myself when I was six. So inorsent and pure not a care in the world was just happy because she was a alive. My best friend Ellie slept at my house and we had a right giggle lol.This morning I went to church which always makes me feel good; it's the one place where I can be myself without feeling like people will judge me. We went to a church meeting at 3 and it was about forgiveness. The whole time I was thinking of Ricardo. Not cause I missed him. Not cause I wanted him back. But just because I now could see forgiving him was the best thing to do. I don't think I'll be seeing him for a while any way he's stoped coming down on the acount of our whole group of mates finally seeing the real him. And trust me it's not pretty lol. Ricardo sees relationships like fire. If you quickly brush your hand over the top of it you don't feel a thing. Leave your hand there to long you get hurt . Ricardo doesn't get hurt. But thinking of it who does.
For once I've learnt something, just cause I love and dislike Ricardo doesn't mean I need him to be happy. I'm fine standing on my own two feet, and a couple of my friends feet two
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